#NaBloPoMo Day One

So I'm going to try my hand at blogging every day of November.

Today I was driving to work and the song Only Jesus by Casting Crowns came on. It's unexpectedly convicting. The words talk about how everyone tells you to make your mark and leave a legacy and then it gets to the chorus...

And I, I don’t want to leave a legacy
I don’t care if they remember me
Only Jesus

So at this point, I'm sitting in my car thinking about all the things I've heard that have told me to think about the legacy that I will leave. And I think of being a good role model and being a leader and then this song slaps me with lyrics about not wanting a name for myself, or not caring if they remember my name. 

and it hurts honestly...

I'm still trying to figure out why these lyrics get under my skin. I'm sure it's mostly pride. Disappointment. But I'll keep exploring and growing. 


Here's a link to the song --> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXIBP2BdYR8 

My Week as a Vegan.

A week ago I had this crazy idea to try to be (secret) Vegan for a week. So true to vegan stereotype... I'm now going to tell everyone about it :)

Day 1: Prep work.

If there is one thing I am terrible at it’s grocery shopping. I never make a plan I just go in there and walk around until the anxiety kicks in and then I leave with whatever has made it into the cart so far lol. But I was like naw girl, if you are doing this you are going to do this right. So I’m looking up recipes trying to figure out how I can also improve my cooking willingness at the same time. It’s been interesting. I’m getting ready to go to the store… but at least this time I have a list.

Well. I’m done shopping. It was terrible. Now this is probably because of my lack of knowledge of the produce section… but shit.. people were staring at me and watching me hog up the aisle and being all like “she doesn’t know what she was doing” and then I got to the check out counter and I took the wrong thing – thinking it was something else. Boo. Everything I bought cost me $54. And I don’t really know if that’s good or bad.. because I had like literally no food… I guess we will see how many more times I have to go to the store this week….

Now I have to cook :S

Welp. Dinner was ok I guess lol. It’s good that nobody but me was eating ill just say that. But then I made my lunch for tomorrow and that’s going to be super solid.. so moral of the story is.. follow the recipe and don’t think you are good enough to improvise Jana.

DAY TWO

Well.. I didn’t take photos of my food today oops. But day two was fine for the most part. My only weak moment was went I was super hungry at supper time.. and don’t get me wrong it wasn’t because of the diet… it was because I had to help her friend with her car and I didn’t get to eat until 8 pm. I will say I’ve been pleasantly surprised that I haven’t felt hungrier.. This could also be attributed to the fact that I’ve been super intentional about eating proteins lol.

I also realized today that like 80% of this diet is mental. Like I’m finding myself being like.. woah people that do this have a lot of self control. They are disciplined, but then I guess the other piece of that is that they really really want to do it, and have reasons other than a sick blog post.

DAY THREE

Driving home I feel realized that I’m like feeling really good. Now I don’t know if that’s because I’m proud because I’ve been eating like super well.. or if it’s actually because of this diet lol.

Something else that I noticed is that this sucks when you are hungry. It’s like super intense. This probably isn’t different than any other type of being hungry; I guess this goes with my thoughts about how a lot of this diet is a mental thing. I also have been eating at really weird times this week. Like different than my normal schedule.

Day Four

Well today was fine. Actually, I hated my lunch, but that’s because I’m choking down the leftovers from that meal that wasn’t really a meal just a bunch of stuff thrown together lol.

I had to get creative today to keep my project a secret… so I went late to thursday night friend group thing (there is usually a meal).. mwhahaha! Basically the hardest part about this for me is the fact that I have to be intentional about preparing food and thinking about snacks, because I know that at work I’m going to get hungry but I need to make sure there is something that I can eat.  Well… and the fact that I’m trying to keep this a secret until my unveiling of a blog post.

For the most part though it’s been easy to keep quiet, like nobody has noticed anything lol. So I’m proud that I haven’t fallen into that stereotype that vegans always tell everyone that they are vegan… like even if they never eat with you lol.

I committed to going to the lake on Sunday and then when I was driving home I realized that I don’t know how I’m going to keep this a secret lol Sunday is my last day so I gotta hold strong.. I’ll think up something.

Day Five

Today was whatever. I don’t really remember anything crazy strange that happened or anything.

Day Six

This morning I was so hungry that I like couldn’t eat. It was very very strange.  That’s happened to me once before like when I wasn’t doing this experiment so I guess my body just likes to eat at the same times everyday or something lol. Basically my conclusion is that… this diet isn’t hard to do, it’s just a pain in the ass lol. I am lazy and I don’t like planning out my food lol. I’m heading to C-ton now.. so lets see how it goes with my parents.

Welp.. mom had like every food that I would want, Brownies, twizzlers. Everything. It was really rough lol.

Day seven.

THE LAKE DAY. This is the day I have been preparing for, how am I going to maneuver this day without blowing my cover. Lol well I managed ok. I thought I was gonna cave cuz it was like grilling and I was like.. man I really want a grilled brat but I was strong. So here’s what I did. I sneakily went to my car while everyone was dishing up and shoved my face full of the food that I brought along… and then I went back and had some of the fixings that everyone else was eating… it was pretty brilliant I’m not going to lie.  Didn’t think I was going to do it BUT I DID and BOOM.

Lessons Learned:

I feel that this experiment has been successful and I have a better knowledge of how the other side lives and eats. I also have a new layer of respect for people that do this, because these people spend a lot of time thinking about what they are going to eat and preparing it. Maybe this is something that “normal” adults do, but I’ve never spent so much time worrying about what I ate.

Would I do this forever? I’m not saying no, I’m not saying yes lol -- the biggest burden of everything is when you are hanging out with friends/going home. If you just chill by yourself all the time and always eat at your house it wouldn’t be too bad. But when you are part of a friend group that loves to share meals together it’s tough.

Were you hungry all the time? Surprisingly no. I never felt like I was hungrier than I normally would be.

And well that's a wrap :P - Obviously I'd love to talk about this with any of you so hit me up! Thanks for reading :)

tundra

I rise from my comfortable log...

side step into the small path and rush along to the wider trek...

i dodge the glares of the elder chiefs,

hoping they don't spot me again walking back and forth on the path.

a sharp turn dashing forward and around the jet out boulder i finally reach the cave....

i push through the brush and now comes the scariest part...

discovering what is behind the branches...

Sometimes i discover hair,

sometimes i discover blood,

other times i find shit..

and once in a nice while...

i find nothing...and then am able to take a nice break.

proud of your boy.

tonight we watched game of thrones... we haven't watched that in like a year haha. Still have a long way to go to catch up. I'm really glad that our families don't force us to marry for power and land and stuff anymore.

Now most people can be like Jasmine "If I do marry, I want it to be for love..."

Jaming out.

I had my launch party today... I had two parties.... with a total of 5 people.... cool.

It was fun. I forgot the food both times.. lol whoops  I guess now i have a veggie tray to finish haha.

James is playing my assassins creed game. pre gaming for when he gets his xboxone this weekend. lol he's got money to burn now i guess :P

It was hard for him to tell his friend Jake hahaha...

This Jamberry thing is HARD. bleh. I have one sale.

HOW DO I FORCE PEOPLE TO BUY :P lol not force but what to get it. It's really fun...

something to figure out for another day i guess ha.

Stay fresh.
-Hot Donna

More than a pretty face.

So maybe I'll try this blog everyday the month of november thing. Hopefully I can keep it up.

Dude. you know what bothers me... well a lot of things but recently it's all this Measure One Bullshit.
I literally saw someone say this when talking about abortions.

"I agree with the exception of the pregnancy risking the mother's life who may already be a mommy to other children."

I read this and then my feminist rage kicked in and I would like...  How could you say that! You are flatly saying that women are only meant to have children... like that's all they are good for. You only can have an abortion if you might die, AND if you have other kids...  WHAT THE FUCK!?!

The worst part of the whole thing is the fact that a woman said this... oh my god.

How can we except these things?! Why are women saying these things?! 

Bleh. hopefully this doesn't turn into a month of feminist rage.

TO THE FIELDS....

An interesting week at the workplace... a ton of online orders have been getting delayed or even messed up, sent to the wrong place...yadda yadda..

what comes with that is a lot of people coming in to complain/calling... everything.

I was reading a lot of the complaints just not and i'm really dissappointed in people right now.

Why are we celebrating christmas? for the gifts? Because we are greedy?  Is it worth crying to your husband on the phone? or telling me that we are ruining christmas because she isn't getting the exact outfit you wanted?

People threatening to never shop there again. People complaining that what we do isn't good enough.

WHY ARE WE LIKE THIS. WHY ARE PEOPLE HEARTLESS WHEN IT COMES TO THEIR MONEY.

WHY CAN'T WE ALL APPRECIATE EACH OTHER AND BUILD EACH OTHER UP..

WHY DO I HAVE TO GO HOME AND BE SAD BECAUSE YOU ARE A MEANY.

....Why does retail suck.