I think i'm a bit stressed.

The end of my college career is quickly approaching. And whenever I think about all the things that need to be figured out I get sick.. (not really..)

Where am I going  to live? Where can i make enough money so that I can pay for things?
Will I scrape for money for the rest of my life?

Was this all a waste, and i could have gotten the same job without a degree?

I'll love you forever...

So one saying that really bothers me is "I'll love you forever if (fill in here)"

Like when you are trying to get someone to do something for you and you say that in order to motivate the person to do what you want.

I might have already blogged about this but i feel really strong about that.

I just think that if you love someone.... it wouldn't be conditional.

I know that a lot of people will argue that they don't mean it to sound like it's conditional.

But words are very impactful, and even if you don't mean it to sound like that...It could mean that to someone else.

Be careful what you say.

-Jana

Google.

Google makes me laugh.

They are obvious about how they have integrated all of their products.

For example, when I began this post they had a little pop up telling me about how I can now tag people from Google+ in my blog....

I use Firefox. Once I was on my blogger page and Google told me that I was using an "unsecured browser"  and then had this link  Use Chrome Now  lol.

I just love how they are very forward with getting you to use their product, and they have no shame about it.
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Another thing I wanted to share with you guy is this.

http://www.youtube.com/user/lacigreen

Laci Green, she is fantastic.  She talks about all those awkward questions that you would be to embarrassed to ask your parents about or Google.

Yes her channel is called Sex+, but it's more than that. She is about empowering yourself and loving your body. Everyone can relate to that. 

Anyway, I just wanted to share that because I just think she is great and thought maybe you would too?

-Jana

That thing called dating.

So I have been active in the dating world for a while now and it has made me realize something.

I have no friends now.

Is it necessarily bad? No. I would never give up the time with boyf, but I do feel bad sometimes. Like when talking with old survivor buddies. Who I don't see anymore because they don't think LCM is cool anymore.

It's only going to get worse. I am graduating college, and everyone will be traveling around. It's kinda sad. It's so hard to keep up with everyone's lives when you don't see each other regularly.

Does anybody else feel like when we all graduate and leave we won't make time to keep in touch?

Something I don't understand

Why is it that negativity spreads like a wildfire?    It's like once you are lost in it for so long...you don't realize how much better your life would be if you just thought it was better.

Everyone always has those sayings like "if you wanna be happy. Be."  Apparently it's a lot harder than that.

I've just been noticing a lot of that negative-ness around me lately...myself included in that. I try to be the positive light, but it's hard. 

I don't know if it's a culture thing, or a brain thing...but it's like once someone brings up something sad.... we are all trying to "out sad" or "my life is more terrible because of this"  

What would it take... to change that.... I don't know.

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I think I have also discovered the reason why I want school to be done now. 

Religion.

I know I know, Jana you crazy... but just stick with me on this.

I am just really tired of it being such a barrier. I hate that people look down on you if you say you believe in God. I hate that people are always judging others. I hate that people feel like they need to live up to something.

I hate that there are people that say I'm not "into" worship anymore. That really made me upset.  I just wish we could go back to how it used to be. We were there because we loved God...and people recognized that.  

-Jana

Don't you forget what he said.

I realized today how powerless I really am.

I have no idea how to help or comfort people that have had serious experiences in life.

How do you help someone that has been traumatized?

What can you say that isn't just words to them?

I haven't a clue.

Me time.

I love when people pay attention to personality types.

I mean like introverted or extroverted.

Personality types play a bigger role in daily lives than people think. I'm just reminiscing on the whole SOC experience. I would say that about 90% of the people they hired to do that job were extroverted, so they loved hanging out and being loud and a bunch of great things. The sucky part about that was all of the training programming was geared toward them.

I just remember wishing I had some time to be alone.

The same thing is happening to me now. We are at the end of the semester, everyone is running around bitching about their finals...and I just wish I had some time to be by myself.  It's hard when you have roommates. It's hard when you have a job.

It's just hard to find time to be alone. Where do you like to go to be alone?

-Jana