I need a reality check.

...Well, tonight I have made a fool of myself.

I have completely expressed my emotionalness...and i can't take it back...

I don't know if it's worse being ignored..or waiting for them to wake up.

I feel bad. I hate that I need to have constant words of hope. Affermation.

What a silly girl I have become.

Hardest week of my life.

This sucks. Why do I need to go through this?

Yes it could be a lot worse.  I know that. But this sucks too.  I'm trying to see the positive...but it's really hard at two in the morning.

chicken or the egg

Man have things turned around. I originally started a tumblr so that nobody would read my private thoughts, then friends got tumblr and I just posted less and less of my original thoughts....how wack is that? Now It's gotten to the point where nobody reads my blogger anymore haha. Actually I think that is for the best.

Summer is rough. We are like three weeks in and i'm struggling. I just feel like i'm running around like a chicken with my head cut off. I don't really know what's wrong, and I don't really know how to fix it....or know if I want too..

It's really interesting. I miss James. Tons. I also realized that he was kinda my only friend lol. My mom says that that is what happens. And I know that she is telling the truth, but then when they are gone...you are left with the internet.

I mean he is still there, like he still talks to me. but i mean he is busy with work and stuff....like i wish I was. Man. I need more things to do. Or something to keep me distracted. I just need to start playing guitar more. yes. I think that's true.  So I can practice my song I want to play for boyf in june.

a 17

well I officially failed at the blogging everyday in April challenge. Lame. I think it's because I started a different blog. I got involved with tumblr. *gasp* I know it's terrible. But I have put some cool stuff on there.

Warning: lovey-dovy, and probably dirty too.

I think I'm putting thing on here mostly for Abby. I think she's my biggest fan that doesn't already know about it. (Kaity is still my biggest fan :P) So ya Abby, if you wanna read my tumblr let me know and i'll hook you up with the link :P

a9

Hey so it's 12 am and I missed the window of the day...so I hope that because I haven't gone to bed yet it still counts as the 9th.

Today I ran around for an hour and one half to hang up posters for my event.

YUCK

It's not so difficult, it's just lonely doing it by yourself. You'd be surprised how many people don't let you hang up fundraiser posters. A lot of chain franchises. 

Guess what I did. I hung up the one I designed... hehehe. All colored and beautiful. I was proud to see them actually getting displayed somewhere other than my computer.

Boo I just realized that I missed one yesterday... Crap.. Can I get it off because it was Easter? haha Maybe. Oh well. I'll just make this one really worth it.

Boyf came home with me over break. It was so much fun. I got to show him all the sites of cton. haha we watched a lot of baseball, and watched a lot of tv but it was really cool to be hanging out all the time. 

When we went to church on sunday, My mom told him he was a good singer haha. I was like SEE I"M NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT THINKS THAT :P   I was glad mom said that, because he really is a good singer.

Tomorrow is my interview with the Y. Hope that works out. haha we shall see I guess.

I don't want summer to come

-HD

a7

So here is my "I'm pissed" moment of the day.

I have been working on this poster for my event planning class.  I showed all my group members, they said it was good. Nope guess not... just got an email from my group mates. and it was a different poster.

I have never felt so slapped in the face.

Why did I waste all that time doing that if you weren't going to use it anyway. The worst part of it all is, the new one does look nice. the text is better organized. It's like he took all my ideas and then screwed me over. Everyone is stupid.

Maybe I am in the wrong major.  huh. well I guess I'll just have to work my way up at justice. Life of a "I'm not good at anything" student.  It sucks.

Must look at more ads i guess.

SCREW ALL IN MY GROUP
-HD

a6

So boyf and I made it home today, which is exciting. My sister got back from her big trip and she got me a gift! yay. BUT what is really cool is she made a scavenger hunt for me to find it. It was all over the town. We went to the park, the golf course, the elem school, the drive inn, and then out back shed lol. It was so cool.

She got me a declaration of independence that she drew the whole map on the back of. (thank you national treasure) It was really fun. Plus I got a sweet tshirt out of it :D She's a sweety

Yay national treasure
-Hot Donna

a5

I'm a little stressed.. Jobs are stressing me out. Lack on communication is stressing me out.

Possibility of another job makes me hopeful....blah... I'm just stressed.

One place has not really communicated anything to me...and i'm just not digging it... :( maybe I should just call and say thanks but no thanks....... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH