Why do we place so much of our own worth in what other people think of us? I mean I definately suffer from this. One of my best friends doesn't text me...BAM "Oh My what did I do? Are they angry with me? what's the real reason for them not coming to this event?" It's so stupid. How much of my life have I wasted away worrying about things like that? If I focused productive like improving today youth...that is a much better way to spend my time.
How did this happen? why do people get like this? It's obvious to me that if they really are your friend, they won't be so quick to throw you away. Something I need to realize myself. I think the hardest part about letting that stuff go, is that you really don't know what is going to happen when you do. Are you going to forget it ever happened? Will you feel guilty for feeling so happy?
It could be something along the line of not wanting to lose part of yourself. Maybe, I like to think that things that effect us so greatly will always stay with us. I think that for me personally is the fact that I don't want to forget. It's a sick twisted "I can hold onto this if I just decide to keep thinking about it and not move on." Is that really fair? No. Is it what I'm doing? Oh yes.
I'm slowly reaching the point where I'm fed up with myself for being this way. Slowly, I will get over this. Take my advise invisible person I talk to on this blog, Don't be like me. Grow from your pain, and don't let it take over your life. There is a greater plan than what you realize, and be comforted by that. I'll be the first to tell you that's the hardest thing to accept, but I believe it's 100% true.
YOU are beautiful, don't let anyone else influence you otherwise.
-Hot Donna.
its going to take time to get over the fact that you dont worry about doing something wrong. go on with life knowing that it is something that needs to be done. worry about it a little but not to the point of you need to know everything right away. dont let people push you into doing what you dont want to believe or think.
ReplyDeletei agree with you, if they are truly your friend they will not throw you away no matter what. even if that means you have been through a lot with that friend and things are hard because of past relationships or something. who knows. it is hard to accept it, but just keep believing that it is 100% true and things will turn out for the better.
you are a beautiful girl and no one can change that about you. so, do not let anyone tell you otherwise that you are not worth loving because you are worth it. you are worth being missed and you are worth being loved.