How He Loves

Letter for Whoever.

Dear you,

Hey you are pretty great if you are reading this. Honestly, I love you a lot. Don't forget. Ever.

I'm writing this because I needed a place to short my thoughts. It's easier for me to type this out than to write it. 

Anyway my friend really really loves his gal, how do I know, you ask? Well, I can see that he is really troubled by the fact that he can't be there for her. That's a real man. Someone who puts his lady first, someone who puts everyone before himself. I strive to be like that. Totally willing to put everyone's needs before my own.

I guess being a man isn't like what everyone says it's about. It's not about having people making you sandwiches. It's about offering to cook once and a while. And it's not how many sports facts you can rattle off, but if you remember an anniversary.  It's not "what can you do for me,woman", it's "how can I help you?"

Maybe I've finally figured out what being a guy is all about. It might not be every guys mindset, but hey I think eventually ,hopefully, everyone comes to this point. Deep down I think everyone wants to do this, find one person who they want to totally bend over backward for.

I think we all can learn a great lesson about love from this story. If we truly care about the ones we love, we would make sure that we put them first. It goes both ways, if both people are doing this...and genuinely want too....then it's beautiful.

May be beginning to understand

-Hot Donna

I swear we were born to let you down.

Why is nothing ever good enough? I mean look at our world. We need more, more food, bigger TVs, beastly looking vehicles and more money. If I have realized anything in the last month, it's that I'm usually complaining about something. How stupid is that? honestly, my life is pretty good compared to what it could be. I mean it could be something as stupid as whining about a lifeguard whistle. Golly, There are so many bigger things to worry than if you are going to have a whistle. 

     

I need to become more thankful for things in my life. Maybe we all do. I just wonder why I can't be satisfied with my life as it is. I want it to be enough, but something just isn't lining up. My mind needs to be cleansed or something. 

Tired of being ungrateful

-Hot Donna

Was it just a dream or was it something much more?

So I love running around in the rain. It's really awesome. It's a pretty liberating feeling. If it wasn't so cold I think that I would have sat out there a lot longer. hehe I wonder why I like running around in rain so much. Maybe it's because I feel like a little girl again. Maybe it's because I've seen way to many movies where cheesy romantic scenes where they kiss and run to each others arms.... Lame.. Mostly, it's because I just enjoy the freedom that comes with it.

My friend has this crazy idea to walk up to random people in target or where ever and whisper under your breath "panties" bahaha. She is so crazy. It's funny though because I can just imagine her doing this in target and laughing as she walked away...

So this summer I am working on making eye contact with people. and as I'm writing this I am practicing my eye contact skills. 

The Twins are making me very proud! winning a bunch of games lately... :) I am so pumped 

I would trust Hagrid with my life

-Hot Donna

Challenge What the future holds

Reasons I'm scared to grow up.

* I have no idea what a Roth IRA is....

* I will have to enter the "real world"

* Yay, paying all my own bills

* I really don't understand any kind of banking lingo...

* I am going to have to call and order pizza :(

* Work.

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I'm watching the Suze Orman show. She is a finance expert, it's awesome. I have no idea what she is talking about half of the time. That's kinda frustrating. How can I possibly be wise with my money if I don't know random ways to invest it.

I'm pretty pleased with myself because I'm finally making steps on making my own choices. When I say that I mean not choosing things to please other people, but deciding things on my own. It's empowering let me tell ya. I'm pumped because I have been working toward this for a while, so it's pretty exciting.

Now that I'm officially on my downhill stretch of college, I'm thinking more and more about the future and what I want to do with my life. It's really weird to think that I've already completed two years of school. CRAZY. and my sister is a senior in high school? That is so weird to think about, my parents will be empty nestors soon.

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Try and keep your head up to the sky 

-Hot Donna

It's been a year filled with problems...

It's really interesting to think about how much I have changed in a year. Or how much Life has changed in a year haha. I mean a year ago, I hadn't met some of my best friends. I was definitely a lot worse at playing guitar. I was closer to my sister because I was only one year out of high school. Different people were important to me. 

It's odd to look back and see how different your life really is. I mean, I was terrified to baby sit little children all summer, and now all I do is work with kids. I was a theatre major, and now I want to advertise? It's so crazy how soon life changes. 

I've also chilled out a lot. I use to be crazy off the wall, always have energy. Man, I'm getting old. I don't like it. No more being lazy for me, I promise.

This is just something I was thinking about and I thought it would be cool for us all to look back to last summer and think about what has changed.

I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes
-Hot Donna

You should have said "Nice to meet you, I'm your other half."

I complain a lot. 

It's something that I realize is a problem. Why do have a bad attitude about everything?  I want to be thankful about all the new opportunities being presented in my life, but something inside me is just evil and nasty. Wanting to be lazy, or being unhappy if it doesn't go my way. I have been that way for a long time. It's sad, I know that I am so blessed to be having all these chances, but for some reason I'm just a crab about everything. 

Maybe I'm just becoming more vocal about everything. MAYBE I just expect everyone to cater to what i want. (not exactly true) It's probably because I rely so much on other people to make me happy. NOT GOOD.

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I am an official lifeguard now. That's pretty exciting. Today when we were canoeing down the river, I got to be a lifeguard. Man, it was a pretty sweet feeling, I felt pretty empowered and all that jazz. It was a good time. It proved to be really difficult though, because halfway through my arms and body was just SUPER tired. Probably comes from two days in a row of hard swimming/water activities.

And you dared to stare right back

-Hot Donna